The Lantern



TL;DR: Letting God run my life open many doors of opportunity, much better than I could’ve ever imagined. Jeremiah 29:11

So today, if you didn’t see on Snapchat, I have a brand new tattoo of a lantern/torch. The inspiration of this came from Jeremiah 29:11: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. This past year, God has been guiding my life acting as a light for me to follow. All the way on the bottom is the design and I will add the picture of it on my arm at a later time. Now buckle up for story time!

Ever since high school, I always had everything planned out weeks, months, years in advance. I had my dream college picked out, my dream job, and the image of what I imagined my life would be like after college. Senior year of high school, I was committed to going to University of California, Berkeley and majoring in chemistry with plans on becoming a high school chemistry teacher.

Within a year, that dream started to shatter. I was homesick while I lived in Berkeley and ended up transferring to University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign. Within a semester at U of I, I ended switching majors from chemistry to statistics. I was so confused on what to do with my life, nothing I dreamt of was happening.

Now it was time to start figuring out what I was going to do with my life post college. For a while, I felt God calling me to join InterVarsity staff. InterVarsity help provide the community that I felt comfortable with at Illinois and gave me lifelong friends that I was able to share my struggles and victories with. I wanted to be able to help lead other new students to Christ and be there as the staff was there for me while I was a student. In the spring of my senior year, I realized that I didn’t have the network to help support me if I were to go on staff. I admit it was hard for me to swallow this because I was committed to this and job fairs had passed so I started to panic and stress about my future.

From spring on through the summer, I was applying to jobs nonstop, hoping t get something in analytics or something stats related. After months of hearing nothing or rejections from companies, I started to doubt in my ability to even get a job or whether or not I was good enough for the working world. One day while sitting in a Starbucks and filing more applications, I looked up culinary schools, cooking has always been fun for me and I thought it was enjoyable to go to school to cook and eat food. I convinced myself that God put this opportunity in front of me more or less taking the easy way out of working word. It wasn’t until Lindsay pointed this out that I realized this and that night, for the first time, I really let go of making my own decisions and asked God to start to reveal where He wanted my life to go.

The next morning felt as normal as any other day, until I checked my email. There it was, the first unread email: my first job interview, letting me know that I had a phone interview later that week. I thought to myself that there’s no way this was a coincidence, praise God. Lo and behold, as the summer continued on, more interviews came in and I felt much happier. In August, I made it through to the second interviews for three companies and I was conflicted on which one would be the best for me. God intervened as two of the companies’ offers fell through, leading only one clear choice for where I would start working.

I ended up working for a startup that I knew absolutely nothing about, this was a big risk for me, not knowing whether or not this company would actually be viable and last through fundraising. However, the very first day of work, the managers told us our company was actually well funded and our jobs were secure. Since I started at my company, God has blessed me with coworkers that I can relate to and get along with as well as a promotion within just two short months. Never in my wildest dreams did I envision myself in this position, but it goes to show that God always has something better for us. Thank you God for everything.


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